punished.and.changed.

ive been punished for all the bad things ive done in these past year espacially this few months.i realised that no matter what u hide from your parents or friends that in the matter in time they will find out sooner or later.today my mum did.and i think i am a bit grateful that she did.because i dunt think i even want keep on lying to her about it.And i promise to myself , God and my parents that i will try not to repeat all the bad things that ive done and try to be a normal kid growing up.My mum was pretty mad today and even wanted to send me back to malaysia and go to a boarding school.its still undecided.but she understand my situation and told me not to worry about my dad cause i know...if my dad knows what i did..il be dead.literally.And rite now i realised how much i should actually be apreciating my mum. how much she'l do for me just to keep me happy and safe.i love her so much.and i think ive changed.im a different person now.i really wanna be a good girl again lyk my dad always thinks i am.i want my parents to be proud of me not embarassed or hated.i love them.i hope they know that.i hope they would change their mind of letting me go away for school.i want to be with them.lol.im actually crying rite now while writing this.this is how much i regret wtever i did.and i hope all my friends will try to do good instead of bad.no matter how much u have scrued up.ure parents will still be your parents.they wont stop loving you no matter what.you all should remember that.for real.i didnt really appreciate them and respect them as much as i should but i will from now on.they have taken away my phone , laptop , almost everything.and i do think that i need a break from all of this.today is my last day coming online on msn for a while.maybe until my mid term exam finish(4th dec 2008).but i will update my blog at least once a week from now on.


till then.
Farida Anum Musa.

lol?

Step 1: Put your music player on shuffle.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 25 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing.
Step 3: Check off the songs when someone guesses both artist and track correctly.
Step 4: If you like the game, post your own

p/s : Don't use lyrics website thingys!
And please try it :)

1. how about a round of applause..yeah...standing ovation...
2. ive been..waiting..for my dreams to turn into something.
3. after all this time that we try i found out we were living a lie.
4. looking back at before the beggining of this and how i fought.
5. i told you i made dinner plans with you and me and no one else.
6. hah. red wan .conflict.
7. hey baby girl ive been watching you all day
8. nananananana.i guess i just lost my hhusband i dunoe where he went.
9. tried to take a picture of love.
10. soulja boy tell em.yooo.u have to hunced back from left to right
11. i dunoe .just looking for her.
12. kau begitu sempurna di mata ku kau begitu indah
13. woww.yeahh...im looking forward for tonight sumthing happen for the first time.
14. shaahh..shaahh.shhaah.i probably shouldnt say this but at time i get so scared
15. everytime i think im closer to the heart what it means just to know who i am.
16.alright.yeah.i heard about some guy that u beat that got in the papers.
17.head under water and u tell me to breathe easy for a while.
18.yea.yea.how u see shan city.do u think about me now and then.coz im coming home tonite.
19.so special.yaww.say he wants you says he needs you
20.so sweet dove.thats my girl.omarion yea.bow wow yea.



im bored =)

Life

i thought life was easy but i guess everyone thought so too.everyday everyone faces new stuff and discover themselves day to day.i still havent though...just wondering when is it my turn?my life is pretty confusing already rite now and im just struggling with my brain.ugh.wished my dad decide to go back to malaysia before the midterm even start.tommorow is the school open house and after tommorow im not sure whether im even alowwed to go on the computer EVER.haih.people keeps on pressuring me with how my brother had done so well and telling me all this amazing stuff that he acomplished well im sorry to dissapoint you all but im not him.im totally different.i think being creative and unique is better than being perfect.anyways,what am i so worried about?no one is actually perfect, there is always some way that makes a person.... how should i say this....NOT PERFECT and its okay to be not-so perfect just make sure that u believe in yourself and follow your heart.people have depressing/stressful years well,this is mine.but you know what?its already almost the end of the year and ive survive.i think ive tried my best to control my life.make it proper,straight and happy.




cheers to life (:



xoxo,fara

new stuff

I AM SO BORED.
i just bought my phone today and i have to wait it to be charged.
3 whole damn hours.god.
i have lotss of hwk!
and u know what?
my mum signed me up for arabic class ergh
shittiess haha.
oh and i have to get more than 80% in the mid terms to get a new laptop ==
damn easy xp
hahaha.
oh...and my mumm have a strategy to get me off boys hahaha xp
she said ' MY DEAREST BROTHER' gave her an advice for me ==
god.i will kill him.
but i know that it wont work xp
hahaha.
anyways!
i so suck in arabic thats why my mum signed me up for arabic class.ahhh.
i think i failed in my weekly test huhu.
haha.
dunt really care so yea..

gtg...kene study...hahahaha.
bye
mwahx!xp
Anum.

so little things to do yet so little time ):

weekends have arrive people...
man i got so many things to do...ugh,
.geography project,anyone can help me?haha.
. english homework (tones of them)uff.
.helping mum with the open house tmrw.bapak penat.
.oh yeah have to do some chart work..for the class..god.

hmmm..
anywaysss
i just came back from city center(:
got a new dress and sunglasses<<
hahaha xp
n bought my mum a new purple handbag haha.
as a present ofcoz lol.
and and and and im so bored....
listening to lovebug - jonas brothers again and again and again n now im sick of it....ok tht was random blablabla.
i love nick jonas though xp.
he is soooo cute!hahaha.
hmmm...
i shud be doing my geography project sooo bye u all xoxo
mwahx!anum.

CLEARED

here are some stuff i wrote out of boringness while studying.haha.

Loves fades away
As i have cleared my heart
And I've decided to be single
For a very very long time.

Here's another two haha.

Life is full of colors,
Each color represents its own thing,
Humans is full of attitudes,
Each have a unique way to show who they really are.

Forget the past,
Begin a new,
Leave all the mistakes behind,
And go on with the truths.

Hmm..lol.its nt tht good but yea..haha.
Anyways,
Till then,xoxo,
Anum
Mwahx!

Bottom Of The Ocean

i love this lyrics so much and thought that you guys should really really read them!


it's been in the past for a while
I get a flash and I smile
Am I crazy?
Still miss you baby

It was real, it was right
But it burned too hot to survive
All that's left is
All these ashes

Where does the love go?
I don't know
When it's all said and done
How could I be
losing you forever?
After all the time we
spent together

I have to know why
I had to lose you
Now you've just become
Like everything I'll
never find again
At the bottom of the ocean

In a dream you appeared
For a while you were here
So I keep sleeping
Just to keep you with me

I'll draw a map
Connect the dots
With all the memories

that I've got
What I'm missing
I'll keep re-living

Where does the love go?
I don't know
When it's all set and done
How could I be
losing you forever?
After all the time we
spent together

I have to know why
I had to lose you
Now you've just become
Like everything I'll
never find again
At the bottom of the ocean

[ speaking: ]
This is it
Let go
Breathe

[ sung: ]
You don't have to love me
For me to, baby, ever understand
Just know of the time
that we both had
And I don't ever
want to see you sad,
be happy
Cause I don't want to hold you
If you don't want to tell
me you love me babe
Just know I'm gonna
have to walk away
I'll be big enough for
both of us to say, be happy...


thank you,
xp
till then,
xoxo,
FARA(:

salt love tale

Here is a love story i want to share with you all.(not a joke xp)
its call the salt love tale ha ha.


There was a gorgeous woman named 'Electra', all the guy loved her especially this simple guy named 'Jake'.
Jake was so in love with Electra that he had the guts to ask her out for coffee the next evening.

In the coffee shop, there was a silence between them...Electra was really getting bored.But suddenly Jake broke the silence by ordering salt for his cup of coffee.Everybody stared at him.
E: why salt not sugar?
J:it reminds me of my childhood
E:childhood?
J:when i was young i lived by the sea.i always go to the shore and smell the salty sea.So every time i drink coffee with salt it reminds me of my home!
E:awwwww, that is sooo sweet!



Ever since that day, both of them fell in love with each other. And soon they got married.Years have passed and Electra always gave Jake coffee with salt instead of sugar assuming that is his favorite. 1 year passed, and Jake passed away.Jake left a letter behind....A letter for Electra...


(in the letter)

Dear Electra,
I've been feeling guilty ever since in the coffee shop.I lied to you.But heck!That lie made us together.I lied about the salt.....I never ever did like coffee with salt,I just said it because...I felt so nervous that i didn't know what to say, and instead somewhere in my head i just said salt instead of sugar.
Ever since then, you always gave me coffee with salt,it made you really happy cause you thought it made me happy.
Sorry,hope you have forgiven me for all the years we have spend together.
- JAKE-

................the end....................................................................................................


lol.the story is a bit stupid but yea...i like it(:
haha.and its pretty short huhu hope you enjoyed it.


Anyways,
till then.
xoxo,
Fara(:

selamat belated hari raya!!

hahaha.
selamat hari raya to all you guys in dubai and malaysia!
maaf zahir batin xp
hope ul enjoy ure raya/eid.
and kutip duit raya cpt!
be4 other people go bankrupt(:

haha,
till then.
xoxo,
Fara(:

For him...

FOR MONTHS IVE BEEN IN LOVE WITH A GUY
I COULDN'T GET HIM OFF MY MIND...
HE IS TOO PRECIOUS TO RESIST.
HE IS TOO CHARMING TOO BE UNNOTICEABLE.
BUT I REALISED THAT HE WAS TOO NICE TO BE MINE.


I KNOW I HAVE SCREWED UP BIG TIME
ITS JUST THE BIGGEST MISTAKE IVE EVER MADE.
ITS TO LET HIM GO...


EVERYDAY I WONDER
WOULD THERE BE ANOTHER CHANCE?
CAN THERE BE US AGAIN?
OR SHOULD I JUST MOVE ON?
I NEED HIM RIGHT NOW,
RIGHT HERE,
WITH ME.....

till then,
xoxo,
Fara (: